不哭并不代表不爱你，而是因为更懂你

我不哭了
不是因为我不爱了
是我累了
是我不想再哭了！
爱我的男人，是不会让我掉下珍贵的眼泪
就算是哭，也是不小心掉下幸福的眼泪
女人最厉害的武器是：
1.哭
2.闹
3.上吊
你第一次哭，男人会很心疼
第二次哭，他会可怜你
第三次哭，他会安慰你
第四次哭，他不会再理你！
我好怕我自己也会有这样的下场
我好怕他不会再安慰我
就算小小的安慰
哪怕只是一句“不要哭了”
我就会很窝心
我哭只想发泄，不是要你的可怜
我只希望你对我再好一点点
没有人能那么快地把一段感情给放下
淤泥分开了这么久，也发生了许多事
我还应该对这段感情抱着希望吗？
我一直在想，我是不是做到了
你就会给这段感情多一次机会
就算在怎么辛苦，我都不想放弃
我很怕一个人，我很怕寂寞
我不想在我一个人的时候想起你
是你让我看透爱情里有四个字
“坚持到底”
哭，并不代表我屈服
退一步，并不代表我认输
放手，并不代表我放弃
正如微笑，并不代表我快乐！
我一直不闻不理，不是因为我不爱了
而是我怕....
我怕那些答案并不是我....想要的所期待的
我怕我哭了
因为你曾经说过
你不喜欢看到我哭
所以
我强忍我的眼泪
不在你的面前掉下任何一滴眼泪
让你看到我的无情
亲爱的，
你永远不知道我掉了多少眼泪
因为
当我掉泪时你不在我身边

*我只是你生命的一只风筝，线段了，我也走了

always be my baby - david cook

Always Be My Baby - David Cook

We were as one , babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So i'm letting you fly
Cause i know in my heart , babe
Our love will never die
No !

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And i won't beg you to stay
If you're detemined to leave girl
I'll not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart , babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder ohh
I know that , you'll be right back , babe
Ohh ! baby believe me it's only a matter of me

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby

You will always be a part of me ( you will always be )
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escapee
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on ( we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling , cause you'll always be my baby

Miss You ;(

Leave you already have 12 days .. Until now i still miss you so much ;( Every day also think want to text you or call you , but i do not dare to do .. Even i text you or call you , i know you won't pick up my call also .. Because you want me to get out of your life , am i right ? I every times kept told myself , i need to give up you .. But i know is hard and is impossible already .. I really do love you much , but you seen like do not care me at all .. Haih ~ I also do not know why you will became like that ? When i just started together with you , that tie you treat me very good .. Every day also pick me up when i finished work , then bring me go had dinner with you .. After dinner also will bring me go Tanjung Aru and accompany me awhile .. That time i thought you are my mr right .. But now i think all is me think too much already .. I should not to think a lot .. I thought you won't leave me alone , but at least you done it for me .. Why ? Is it i treat you not good ? I know now am not a good girlfriend for you .. But then now because of you i keep change myself .. Change to be a good girlfriend .. What you dislike me to do i also won't do it .. But why at least also like that end up this relationship ? To be honest , our relation haven't solve all the problem .. Just me don't want to think too much , so just said that we not couple already .. I every day kept thinking that you will come back my side someday .. Is it true ? I really hope i will dream come true .. Last night after movie with friend , then my friend ask us go we first time met up that place have a drink .. When i arrived there , my mind all is our sweet memories .. When i think about it my tears kept drop out and feeling heart pain also .. I really hope we can turn back last time ..

Do You Know I Miss You Much ;(

我很想你 ，你知道吗 ？我真的很希望你能够现在就出现在我的面前。。这几天我一直告诉自己，你是不会回到我的身边了，所以我要学会放下你。。可是到最后我还是做不到。。这几天去回你带我去过的地方，回忆慢慢的出现在我的脑海里。。想起我们开心的时候，自己都会一直在傻笑。。一直在想我们几时能回到从前的我们啊？我很想念你的声音，想念你的拥抱，想念你欺负我的样子，最想念的还是弄你生气的眼神。。你生气的眼神真的是很凶。。当我知道你生气的时候，我都不敢打扰你。。因为怕你会骂我，可是到最后我都会去弄你。。因为不想看到你生气的样子。。你知道你生气的样子很丑吗？哈哈 。。刚才打了很多通电话给你都没人接听，那是我以为你还在忙所以没打扰你。。差不多要八点时，我又在打通电话给你。。那时电话响了很久你才肯接。。当时我的心在想，你是不是在逃避我啊 ？为什么每次打给都没人接 ;( 昨天睡前，我又偷偷的掉泪了。。想到现在的你完全都不理我，不在乎我的样子。。真的感觉到心好疼啊 。。我真的不知道为什么你会这样对待我？昨天晚上睡觉时突然梦见你回到我的身边，那时候的我真的很开心。。可是当我醒来时，才知道原来是一场梦而已 ;( 今天的我真的哭到很累了。。很想去睡觉，可是都睡不进 ..

About me with him ;(

Miss the time when we hang out together ;(

I miss the time when you bring me along with your friend went to clubbing ;(

I miss the time when you hug me ;(

I miss your smile ;(

Today i have the courage to send you a message .. I do not want our feelings in dragging .. This treat each other also not good , so i'd rather do a bad person can thoroughly one off break .. I admit i am reluctant to end this feeling , But now i can feel you do not love me and care me anymore .. Actually i already know the facts , But i do not want to accept , have pretended not to know .. I think that i am able to maintain this relationship .. Originally i was wrong .. Before you i can disguise to be happy , i will miss you .. Really want to call you and wanted to text you .. But i do not dare to find you .. I always waiting your call and your text , But now i know everything is impossible already .. Now i really miss the time when we together play , together laugh happily , together go movie , together go shopping and other .... I really want return back to last time , But now all is gone already .. I know you won't come back my side anymore .. Because am not a good girlfriend for you .. Start from now , i think i will try my best to put down all .. I wish you happy always and take care ;(

How i pass today ?

This my real smile or fake smile ?

Learning how to smile happily =(

Last night slept around 4 something like that .. Because i couldn't fall asleep and didn't feel sleepy at all .. What's wrong with me again ? Almost 1 month my life passed like that .. I think i gonna say goodbye with this world already .. Actually today need to go work , but i overslept already so i didn't go to work .. Just now when i woke up already 2 something like that .. How came i can slept until so late and be pig ~!!! Omg ~!!! Long time didn't slept until so late already .. And now my health became more worse and became more thin already .. Some of my friend and my cousin said i look thin than before .. I kept think how came i'll like that , i always ate a lot of junk food at outside .. How came now became more thin ? Some of people said if relationship got some problem sure will became more thin because no mood want to eat anything , is it true ? Every day i just have my lunch only .. Then dinner i didn't eat , because no mood want to eat .. Even my mummy cook what i like to eat i also no mood want to eat .. So always been scolded by mummy said i always didn't eat anything , that's why my health became more worse now .. Haih ~ Sorry mummy .. Not me don't want to eat , i no mood eat how you force me i also won't eat .. Just now with daddy , mummy , brother , sister and me went to air-asia city wagamama have our dinner .. When arrived there we go see people play drift , because there have car show .. After see people play drift then we went to wagamam .. When have dinner we all keep laugh became me with my brother kept make noisy at there .. Long time didn't see my mummy and daddy like that happy already =) Saw them like that happy i also feel happy too ~!!! After dinner then we straight go home , on the way going home i kept called you but you didn't answer my call .. I think might be you still busy to do your thing , so i don't want to disturb you .. Just now 10 something like that , i called you once gain .. But you still didn't answer , i think maybe you sleep in already .. Haih ~ Without you i really feel all the thing was changed a lot .. I really miss that time when we happy together =(